Busy lah sangat =)

I have not written any post since Last February. For 3 months I wrote nothing. Why? Why? Why?

Well, so many things going on in my life. Because of that, so pack and tired, till I am not even realized it’s already few months I left this blog.

But after all these things happen, and I am in the period of cooling down, I think I should just write. Or else, it just becomes memory. Is worth to write it here and read it after few years, so that I can do self reflection.

Why am I so busy??

I am busy with work. There are new task coming in more and more. At first I thought I am not efficient, but it is not. Indeed a lot of work, meetings day and night, discussion, brainstorming, training, workshop, assignment, presentations. And when I go back home, I just want to have a rest and watch my favourite TV series. It indeed helps me refresh =).

I am busy with wedding prep. Do it alone while my fiancée is away, definitely a big challenge. Imagine you go shopping some wedding stuff, a lot of shopping bags to carry, plus some of it is heavy stuff, and no man power. Oh god, it so tiring, but when back home, so happy!! And also so excited, and so proud of myself because it’s a girl power =)

I am busy to improve my spiritual side. I am a Muslim, but.....well not really embedding what a Muslim should be or should do..a lot of people are like me..wearing hijab, seems to cover  aurat, pray 5 times a day...BUT, it is a big BUT. Wearing hijab and cover aurat but not perfect. Not as Allah want, not as Rasulullah taught us. Pray but not perfect..late, not khusyuk..MasyaAllah...well a lot of things actually. So thanks to Allah, after I attend this one Islamic convention, I realize I might don't get a chance to go to heaven at all since so many sins I did. BUT Allah is the most forgiven..those who seek forgiveness to Allah (taubat), insyaallah will be forgiven. I just hope I will istiqamah in ibadah and become a solehah wife and mithali mom. I started to read, listen and watch more religious stuff, and do a lot of self reflection. I am praying that all people around me will also love Allah and Rasul more and more. "Hidayah" is the sweetest phenomena happen in my life. I love the new me. So happy and peace =).

Last but not least, things that make me busy for another month is I just moved to new rental house. Yes, I decided to rent. To show that I am so lazy, I rent fully furnished. Earlier I was plan to buy but me and fiancée don't want to do it in a rush. No way we have enough time to buy new house before get marry...we want it to be slow steady and no regret. Even though my house only have 1 bedroom, I am very satisfied..such a perfect house for new married couple. Well, of course my fiancée will move in after we get married. For the time being, I live alone with Nikki. These past weekend I am busy to shop few stuff for the house..small small things but still cost a lot of money..imagine if I rent non furnished..will be triple costly I guess. But now already settle down, and so happy living my new life. The whole new adventure! =)

I guess how busy you are, writing your though and feelings is a good therapy. I should do this more often. =)